Talking to Edward
After 2 years and 4 months, I chose to speak to my ex-boyfriend, Edward. It felt like old times a little but there was something different about the man I was speaking to now, and the one I wanted to marry 2 years ago.
He gave up on trying to fight the sin issues that were consuming him when we stopped talking. He has very little shame in those matters now. Bitterness is also taken a hold of him. I think I am currently a target of that and already our time of talking might be over.
I think we handled being platonic friends well. It was hard for me knowing I could do nothing to help him, and he wasn’t helping himself.
Even if he opes to cut me off again, I think us talking now was good. It erased the over romanticized version of him that I remembered from dating him. I am finally over him and free.
This happening at the same time that I am allowing myself to date again (May 1 was the date I picked 16 months ago) I don’t think is coincidence. God knew the timing of this all.
Dear Lord, please help me keep to a good testimony and follow the path You would have me follow. Correctly quickly and with mercy when I stray from Your laws. Thank you for the strength to make it this far. Be with Edward and keep asking him to correct his path.