Hiding In God

Its Summer!!!

Y’all have been great followers this term.  Even a few of you joined during this time.  I’m hoping you checked back a few pages and my testimony so you know my normal content.

They say college, especially Bible college changes you.  I know that if you are the person changing that you don’t always notice the difference being made.  So where do I beginning in looking for differences in me?  I really have no idea but I could start with just the basics as I see them.  And the expected changes I didn’t make.

More time in prayer
I knew prayer was important but never really got the idea of praying without seasing down well.  I still don’t.  I have learned that it is one of the best ways to keep a close walk; always be talking to the Father.  I started by trying to maintain the sweet spirit of the girls’ dorm after revile.  My life was lacking this so much.  I should have been working more on this years ago.

No better at making friends
By this I’m referring to real life.  I was known, as usual, for keeping my nose in my books and homework but I tried my best to be friendly.  The only two girls seemed to really get to know me as a friend this term and seem sad to see me go home.  But no one else gets close to these girls.  I seem to have the have a chance to be friends with those that others have forsaken again.  I wouldn’t give that up for all the real life friends in the world.

Internet
I never would have thought I would throw away my membership sci fi forum that Edward and I met on. But after realizing that the posts were just filling my head with garbage, I broke my ban on the site to deactivate my account. No one has said anything to me about it and I’m hoping to still be a part of their travel network. Every time I’ve used it, a forum member has heard the gospel. That is my one reason for having the account. I have Facebook for that now.
I joined Pinerest. Apparently this is a very feminine thing to do. I am still being a rebel and not starting a wedding board. Ha ha Internet!

Sister connection
The main reason I didn’t want to go to Northern Bible College was because my sister was already there and we don’t get along at all. This hasn’t changed. I will admit that when I first got there her harsh treatment of me caused a bit of talk among the students. I have good hearing so I could hear the buz it made on campus. There were days when I would check my room to make sure it was empty before crying. I wanted no one to know it hurt or that I still thought I deserved it.

Guilt
A combination of my sister and the preachers’ warnings against disqualifying oneself for ministry stared pulling me down because my guilt was still there. Then y’all might remember when I seemed to embrace God’s forgiveness even more and despise that he still wanted to use me. That gave me a new resilience to my sister’s rejection and people who wanted me to stop going into ministry to these forgotten people. I also don’t live in fear of being kicked out of the dorm if a data leak happened and I wanted to be set aside for the Master’s use.

Complaining/trusting
Trust had to be required for school and because mommy wasn’t there to voice my worries to, I only had God left. He never let me go hungry or without time to study or without a ministry moment. He even made sure I wasn’t doing too much in my own power. I’m learning more to just rest in His arms.

Pants
I still love them and still think wearing them isn’t a sin or cross dressing as others have said but I do see the results of not wearing them. It is a good conversation starter on spiritual things. But you can’t start with “I would rather wear pants” and still have the witnessing opportunity. If people get saved because I’m in a skirt, it is worth it. I’m home now and wearing jeans under a short dress. Feminine and modest while not looking like the world.

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II Timothy 3:12-13
Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution.
But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, and deceiving, and being deceived.

This isn’t the type of verse that you would often see posted in script on the wall or embroidered on a pillow, but it is still in the Bible.  If you are struggling and wondering why holding to your believes seems to keep getting you into more trouble, take heart and be encouraged.  You are doing it right.

Notes from my Last Doctrines Homework

3.      Explain the concept of Past, Present, and Future judgment as it relates to a saved person.
The cross was the past judgment where the power of Satan over the saints was broken and saints’ sins were put away.  Everyday the believer must examine his own heart and judge his sin or God will judge for not growing closer to Him.  There is a future judgment where the saints actions will be judged and rewards will be given and lost.

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