I bought this book because it was free for kindle at the time. I was not as careful then with what I read then but knew it was sold as a Christian romance book. Reading it now was painful and made me cringe with distaste.
The story is about a woman, Lex Sakai, who is not looking for a relationship and living her life with the burden and guilt of being a rape victim. No one knows about burden though. Her unsaved grandmother just sees an unfeminine woman able to get a man. So to encourage her granddaughter to get hitched up, she says she will cut funding to the girls’ volleyball team she coaches if she doesn’t have a boyfriend by her sister’s wedding.
Simple, harmless and very old fashion sounding plot. The author, Camy Tang, chooses a more modern take on the tale with a modern style. Both fail. The style feels like she tried to use John Shepard’s exaggerated and sarcastic method of weaving her story. It, however, feels like a soap opera without the estrogen removed and nothing really replaces it.
The plot has Lex trying, rather pathetically, to get a date or funding for the volleyball team. She runs into other problems with housing, her job and her health. But the message of the book is supposed to trust God for the out come instead of working in the flesh for it. Good message but poorly executed. Lex’s hardship does not build sympathy for the character. It just makes her seem hopeless.
But to me the biggest failure of this book was its view of sexuality and Christianity; both are things that I think of as key for Christian romance. There is no idea of submitting ones sexuality to God. In fact Lex keeps trying to push herself into kissing or being touched by men to help herself overcome the the mental damage from the rape. The book has more graphic than needed flashbacks to it too.
Than anyone that goes to church is considered to be a Christian, regardless of whether they love God or not. One character even becomes a Christian without it ever being clearly explained what is means other than he started going to church.
Even though I could relate to Lex, I cannot recommend a book weak in the definitions of Christianity and strong in sexual content.