And readers everywhere said, “You got that right.”
I dug into this chapter because I know my impatience is an issue. There was a key point that I took away from it; don’t belong to each other before the time God has appointed for you.
Now I’m learning the failure of those lovely signs for marriage that I wanted God to send. So soon as Edward got the last sign I thought of myself as his even though I never told him that. I wasn’t to date anyone else and if he married another I was to remain single.
One thing Edward kept doing was saying that he was mine. He handed himself over to me for no good reason I could think of and it bothered me. “What if you should marry someone else?”
"Then you’ll be hard to explain," He said. "But you’re leaving me in better condition than you found me so she can’t complain about you. I won’t let her."
First off, if that works as well as him forbidding me to eat fatty food it won’t work. Second we were both out of line with our thinking.
When I asked God for changes that I should make to the signs I made at 9 I was noticing my feelings for men for the first time and knew that I might actually use them. I adjusted the signs by God direction and made more of a legal style document. But I never had peace about the part where my heart belonged to the man as soon as he completed the 3 fold requirements. But I couldn’t think of a reason then for not trusting God enough that the only one to do these signs would be the one.
Dear God, I’m sorry for giving away a heart before it’s time to a man I’m unsure of. I need answers about the signs and if they mean anything. I know that I have lied to Edward and said that they no longer apply to him and I don’t know if that is wrong. I am not in a rush for this clarity for I know how foolishly I acted the last time I had it. I thank you knowing that Your timing for the answer is better than my own. Give me strength so that for now my heart is for only for You.